It's been quite a long time since I've used this blog. I think nows a good a time as ever! Well I'll get right to the point. I think I'm due for a change. I've been thinking alot about what I've been doing with my life, and what I want and they are two very different things. I'm changing, and for the better. I've been sober since tuesday, that may not sound like much, but I'm proud of myself. A small accomplishment is still an accomplishment. I don't think I'll be smoking for some time. I want to make something of myself. I'm tired of being high all the time, it's not getting me anywhere. I want to make something of myself. I'm not doing this for my parents, my teachers, not even my girlfriend. I'm doing this for myself.

    I've been trying to express myself recently. I've stareted writing. I don't know if I'm going to show anyone, but if it turns out alright, who knows. I'm justing trying to find something that'll make me happy, and maybe something I can do when I'm older. I'm still thinking about film. Maybe a cinematographer, that'd be cool.

    I think this might be for realy this time. I've talked about changing plenty of times in the past, but now theres a few things that are kind of pushing me in the right direction. I hope so.

    Well that's all I got in me for now. I'm probably going to start using this blog again, who knows.

I love you all...well most of you ^-^
~Nick

I've gone and made me a web-comic-blog thingy. It's just a drawing by me and then some ranting, also by me. You might find it funny, you might not. Doesn't bother me either way.

Enjoy my crap!

mroffwhite.mindsay.com

This one's a quicky. I have a 5 page research paper due by next thursday, and I don't even have my topic yet. So I'm pretty much fucked. If I don't hand this in, I don't get any class credit, NON AT ALL! I'm not too happy about that.

It's quarter to 4 and I'm still awake. I got a few hours of sleep in, but nothing good. It's all becuase of my fucking tongue. For some reason it stings like a bitch ALL THE TIME! Talking hurts, drinking anything stings (even water), eating KILLS! So all in all, I'm not very happy right now. This tongue thing pretty much started on my birthday, and I havn't been able to enjoy food since. Why does all this shit CONSTANTLY happen to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Is it karma? Do bad things happen to good people? Or is it my destiny to constantly be pissed off? Whatever it is, I wish it would fucking stop. Honestly, I hate my life right now: I'm always sick, I can't sleep, I'm constantly in pain, I get a new fucking illness every goddamn day.

Seriously what the fuck?

I love that new game smell!

Kingdom Hearts II here I come!

Ok, so I just got from the hospital to see what was wrong with my eye (it's got these weird pimple-like things around it). They do allsorts of tests and what not and it comes to: I have chicken pox...AGAIN! Seriously, who re-gets chicken pox? Apparently I do.  The last time I had chicken pox was when I was 3, and I had it on my birthday. Here I am, 15 years later, with chicken pox and my birthday is tomorrow. Come on! This is bullshit!

I'm going to stop rambling 'cause no one cares

>Nick

Well I have a disease that'll keep me out of school for up to 3 weeks and no one says shit. Thanks guys, you make me feel so special! No one seems to care that I wont be there for almost a month! Way to go guys! The only person that called to see how I was, besides Ana, was Josh and his main concern was if we were still going to get drunk on my birthday. Wow, I really surround myself with caring people. The only people that actauly seem to care that I'm sick is Ana and Cady (she got me "a get well soon" card). [sarcasm ] All you other guys are awesome too! [/ sarcasm]

I have Mono. FUCK! Of all times I get it now. Lets see: tomorrow is me and Ana's 4 month, I'm missing it. I was supposed to get my permit tomorrow, can't go now. My birthday is in 9 days, I'll probably be sick still. Prom is on the 12th, I might be sick still. Here's the best part: since I've missed so much school I might get kicked out of Vopro. If that happens, it'll delay my graduation another mother fucking year! This is such bullshit. 

Well I stayed home today due to my strep throat. To my suprise, today was fantastic! Ana called me at 7 something just to check up on me. It completely made my day. She called me 2 more times durring the day. I really do love this girl! I was watching the movie Thumbsucker as well. It was really really good! It's a pretty deep movie. It's kinda hard to explain, so I wont. Go watch it though. If you have Digital Cable, don't waste your time watching "Doom" and instead order Thumbsucker. I've been listening to alot of different music latley. Alot of The Postal Service, Stellastarr, The Pixies and more bands most of you havn't heard of. Great stuff. To top it off, the weather is fantastic!

>Nick

Well I havn't updated in some time! Well I'm still happy as ever! I'm pretty syched that it's spring! It's my favorite season. Things with Ana are great! I can see myself being with this girl for a long long time. With her, I'm the happiest I've ever been. This has been, by far, the best school year EVER! Time needs to slow the hell down, so this ends! Anywho, I'm super happy, so thats all that matters!

>Nick